"Don't be doin' all that cryin' over me...I'm fine"

That's exactly what she'd say if she saw me right now. (thanks mom for reminding me of that)

Yesterday was an interesting day for me. As you know I went to the doc's office for that "experience". But later on my mother told me that my aunt had passed away. I am usually one that keeps things in and can hold it together, but I will admit that it was hard to do that last night. I cried. I wept. and then I cried some more. This was never the news that I thought I'd hear. I couldn't understand the circumstances, I didn't know how my brother would handle it, and though my mother was keeping her voice strong on the other end of the phone, I knew that she was sad as well. Even this morning as I talked to my mom...I continued to cry. I cry for the woman who gave whatever she could to other people (including me). I cry because she went alone. I'm hurt that probably won't be able to attend the funeral. But 06 reminded me last night that funerals are for the living. I know my aunt would tell me to stop all this crying...and at some point I will. But sometimes the brick wall leaks...and sometimes the water continues to fall until its all gone....

So to my Auntie (if you're reading from the world wide web in Heaven), I love you. Thank you for ALWAYS supporting me. From my awards presentations in elementary school, to move in day at Duke, and even my graduation. Thank you! You always told me to "hurry up and become a doctor so I could take care of you" and that is exactly what I intend to do. Your memory will live on in me and the lives that you touched with your warm heart. When I walk across the next stage, I know that you will be there too. I'm sorry that I didn't call as much as I should have...and that it took forever for me to mail you that picture. I'm sorry that you spent your last days alone. I hope that you find the comfort you sought in life, now that you are resting above. I love you Auntie.